|my lovely college life happened here|
|me and STAPALA in graduation 🙂|
|w my parents|
In my life, I graduate first in Diploma Programme. But, my friends who finish their master program get their job first. While STANers 2010 have to wait for an uncertain time to do the placement test then have to wait more to be a part of Ministry of Finance. This thing that sadden me for not going in the university I was craving for. It’s destined that now I’m a civil servant to be :”) while some of my friends are going to continue their S2 study. Contrast isnt it? This is how we’re being separated, everyone moves as the time goes by.
4. Craving for a job
|I was an intern in DKI Jakarta Provincial Government|
Before the graduation I’ve signed a contract to work in DKI Jakarta Provincial Government in a Sensus Program. Thanks God I spend my first 3 months to work rather than being jobless and stay at home. I don’t wanna waste my precious time doing nothing useful. By working here, I get so many lessons, new friends from STAN too, and sooo many things I can’t tell one by one :”) Thanks guys, I appreciate you all so much.
|In Kanaka Public Accountant Office, my job as a consultant|
Finishing my first internship, I’m not being satisfied and I continue looking for a job. And I was accepted in Kanaka Puradiredja Suhartono Accountant Office. I get a job as a consultant, can travel to several places and make friends with more and more people :”) Thanks guys, I will never forget our friendship Kanaka 48, we even held “Makrab”
I have a liberal soul, an untamed personality, an idealism I don’t wanna cross but it was over. I used to dream of being a doctor and failed getting in my dream track. I was thrown faar away from the path I wanna cross, now I’ve finished my Taxation Program in college but I still feel that it’s not my spirit. People say you won’t feel like working when its the job you love. And I wonder will I love this kind of job? I am in this path, trying to rebuild my idealism that now the reality has dragged me in this way. I used to uncare of the subjects I don’t like, but now I realize that this path I have to cross need to be taken care.
My dream job, far away from the reality now. My spirit is in some kind of free time job like singer, reporter for adventurous program, or freelancer. Ah, I will soon work in some kind of those boring building. I have to be ready then..
Taking care of my health is important. I start to be a bit picky of the food I eat. I love outdoor activities, sports, and I start to go to gym just to force myself working out while I’m still in waiting for miraculous announcement of TKD. When I’m about to start love running, it’s Ramadhan now. I almost have a blackout in gym, I force myself too hard to run. Well, after the announcement comes, exact date of TKD, and I’ll start to live independent again I swear I will live healthier and happier. Slap me IF I forget to be spiritful! Hihihi
Being an intern, working in Provincial Governtment and Accountant Office, I tend to spend money whenever I wish. I love travelling, I’m a bit careless of my savings. But, I’m gratefull at least I have 7 months being productive in this kind of waiting, earn my own money, buy a smartphone, daypack, heels, and several things. Since I ran out of money, I have to fasten my seatbelt to be tidier to organize my financial.
After working in two different field, have to wake up early, struggle to get the commuter in a very crowded station, continue walking and wait for kopaja etc, and the routine I have everyday for working, now I know the hard thing to earn money. Reality slaps me in the face!I have to be more dicipline for my work and money.
Being a kid, teenager, I want this and that so bad, giving a really childish reason to have this and that thing, buying unnecesary things and many more. Since I’m a grown up lady now, I have to be realistic of the capability I have. I’ll spend money based on my needs.
Before 20 I’m kinda confused and loose directions of where I will and what I wanna do. Since I’m no longer a kid I have rights to do whatever I want, what hobbies I have. I will continue my TOEFL couse, foreign language course, boxing, travelling, writing, singing in all the way I want. The key is, I have to know my day off and arrange my own schedule as I wish.
|maybe I can fall in love again If the person is Kim Soo Hyun alike wkwkwk|
Being in love, unable to have real relationship even once, too many things that keep me away from a serious relationship so many times I’m broken. Being friendzoned, friendzoning people, being a runaway love of someone, having a close relation that ended up being nothing, and a very painfull brokenheart,etc I’ve been there and done that. Hahaha Now, I’m in the stage that I am really disappointed of what guys are. I’m tired, and give up. Let’s see If one day there’s a guy that fits me perfectly, what miracle will come to me ~
|get invitation w my own name on it|
One by one, my friends are getting married, invitations everwhere, attending my friends wedding is such a common thing to do. It reminds me that being in 20’s is a serious stage. Hmm, will I be ready to be like them? Well, getting married isn’t a game to play, I will not just do it because my friends are getting into it. I have to be ready and settled :”)
The topic changed, one by one getting married, and the pictures they post in social media isn’t just lovey dovey thing. Started from some kind of pregnancy till the picture of baby everywhere. I’m getting old already
I used to have friends everywhere, after graduation it seems I’m lonely. Where is everybody? This is life, I have to be ready for being left behind. But, taking care of the friendship we used to have isn’t my only responsibilities, both sides have to do same way to keep the friendship we used to have. A tie that we never take care will loose and disappear. While, the other thing as our priority in life is family, make them priority before they leave you one by one. Remember, family is number 1.
I’m tired of being drama queen of my life. Finally, growing up make me calmer and wiser. I’m not as explosive as before, I’m not asshole like before. I’m grown up and responsible enough.
I’m no longer a stubborn girl who willl get everything I want. I know the things are destined on their way. I will accept the fact that I can’t be with the person that isn’t destined for me. I accept the fact that I wans’t a medical student and I won’t be a doctor. I know God creates destiny to teach us lessons. And at the end, as a human I have to know that what human can do is giving some efforts while God is the one who will decide.
around her 20’s